i am who i am..

i'm forever how i am..

imma MusicLee..

yes babe,

imma Music.. =)

new look.. have a look and comment.. ;-)

最后一句，我爱你

放弃一个爱你的人并不痛苦。。

放弃一个你爱的人，是痛苦。。

爱上一个不爱你的人，更痛苦。。

自己了解，但为何为了一个不再爱你的人。。

而锁自己在另一个世界里。。

但，

没人知道，我不是不想走去。。

是回忆把我锁着。。

我很想你，

对我说的每一言每一句。。

你曾说，

会照顾我到永远。。

但为何，你要先离开。。

那，

你说的永远，是怎样。。

我不要一个人过。。

以前不想，现在不想，以后也不想。。

这首歌，

就像你对我唱 的每一句。。

第91天～

我的头脑里～ 还是有你～

是我，太小看我对你的感情了吗？

每次在学校，家～

总之是有人的地方，我都会把我最真的一面，

收场起来。。。

假装的快乐和开心～

能耐多久～

我以为，你是对的人～

可是这真的只是以为～

我的朋友常说，

我是很开朗的女孩。。

为什么为了个男孩，把自己锁起来～

这个问题，

连我自己也不会答～

91天了，这段日子，

我自己一个人过。。

你知道我有多么的痛苦吗？

看见，你和我的回忆～

我的眼睛，就会很自然地流去眼泪～

我努力地让自己开心～

我努力地让自己忘记你～

我努力地往前走～

我努力地不往后看～

我还有一段很长的路要走。。

总不能呆在这里～

我了解～ 可是～ 抱歉～

我需要更多时间～

妮

你走了 的日子 第15 天~

每一天，每一个钟，每一分钟，每一秒~

我都在想你。。

我还是无法面对 你离开了我们~

每一天，

我都过着假装开心的心情。。

没有人会知道 我的感受，我的心苦。。

我最不喜欢 是

人家说话不算，承诺的谎言。。

你曾经 承诺过的。。

你做不到。。

我也无所谓。。

但。。

你对我最后的一个承诺也做不到~

你说过，你最大的承诺 就是不要让我再次流泪。。

要我笑，要我开心。。

到你发生车祸的那天。。我就忘了，笑和开心。。

每天睡着 都会哭醒~

我知道你不像我这样，可是我自己也不像阿~

我多想每天好好地 一睡到天亮。。

可是就是做不到~

两个钟前，就是你离开了我们第两个星期。。

你还好吗？

不知道你是在上面还是下面。。

不知道 现在你是哪家的孩子，是男还是女，有钱还是穷或平常。。

是人还是动物。。

是外国还是本地人。。

是帅，可爱，酷？

Music 妮

10/09/2011 @ saturday

these day is my life SUCKS day~

these day had happen something i not even wish~

heart feels very pain~

he's away..

from us forever..

he's dead and it really happen~

firstly i thought it was a joke by his friend..

when i knew it was real~

i so exite and cry out~

all my cousins, sister or either everyone beside's me was giving a shooked~

T^T

没有你的日子 第17天 晴

我 一定要放下 对你的一切。

因为，你已经不是属于我的～

我明白，我了解。。

我和你已回不去了。。

我能假装 不在乎，不爱，不理，不问，不提。。

因为，虽然得不到你。。

但我 会祝福你能

快乐，开心，幸福。。

我知道，

你不会 在看我的 部落格。

所以，我才会有勇气 写出一切～

妮

没有你的日子 第13天 雨

这段日子，

我真的真的，很想逃避。。

我真的没有勇气去面对。。

或许，你已经不在乎我了。。

可是，在我心里，你依然还在。。

昨天，你妹说，你们来怡保了。。

我很想去见你。。

可是，最后，我选泽呆在家。。

因为，我怕我会哭。。

这段日子，我学习

勇敢地面对，

坚强，

不妥协。。

虽然如此，但 我的心意。。

也有谁能理解。。

只好做好本分，

演下去。。

谢谢，婷，朋友们。。

谢谢 你们的加油 和 鼓励。。

一切都过了。。

伤心一天，开心一天。。

我会 努力的开心的活。。

我要让自己知道。。

没有他，我能活得更开心。。

可是，

还是一句。。

我爱你。。

妮

。。。。。。。。。。。

last time u say,

now,

i say



没有你的日子 第二天

昨天，

我都没吃东西。。

根本一点胃口都没有。。

今天，总算吃了不少。。

我。。

真的， 渡不过。。

如果世界，真的有死神少女。。

我会想他来带走我。。

那我们就不会这么辛苦。。 =（

可是，死真的能 改变一切吗？

不会。。

这会让他，更内疚。。

天啊。。

为什么，要这么折磨我们。。

为什么。。

为什么。。

为什么！！！！！！！！！

妮

101 days @ 25/07/2011

今天，

我发了很大的脾气。。。

因为，

压力太大了。。

我喜欢的老师将换去别的学校了。。

功课的关系。。

和

SDO。。 ==///

亲爱的。。

今天一定给我吓坏了，

对不起呀。。

我发脾气，

可能会比你想象中更恐怖哦。。

虽然，

我是个 快生气 快开心的人。。

可是，

能看到我生气的人，

只有我身边最亲的人。。

比如说

我家人，我好朋友，

和

我 爱的人。。

对不起呀。。

我真的不是故意要发脾气的。。

哎。。。

退一步，海阔天空。。

能忍就忍吧。。

发脾气，只会让身边的人更怕更讨厌。。

都忍着不发脾气这么多年了。。

接下来，

加油吧。。

妮

96 days @ 20/07/2011

今天，

把手都搞坏了。。

哈哈，跌倒了，真得很痛。。



去到补习，

还要被人偷拍和威胁。。

==///

无聊的 男孩。。

我没兴趣和你玩啦。。

要我答你的问题才肯散掉。。

问题 都是关于anime 的。。

守护甜心 的主角 眼睛和头发是什么颜色。。

红和粉红 咯。。 ==///

我很不喜欢这个男孩。。

每天disturb我 补习，

每天 照我说anime。。

每天 show off 说自己很有钱。。

对不起咯，

你这样，我不会羡慕你。。

反而，更讨厌。。

没错，

我是喜欢钱， 有那个人是不喜欢钱的啊！

可是，我不喜欢[败家]的！

就算朋友，能免的最好就免了。。

败家 是我最讨厌的。。

虽然 我不出声。。

并不代表你 [德尊进尺]。。

好了，请别再烦我了。。

我不知道你想怎样，

可是，我对你连做朋友的兴趣都没了。。

自己 逃学 还收到好像很伟大。。

怀学生。。

更讨厌。。

妮

94 days @ 18/07/2011

HAPPY 3 MONTHS ANIVERSARY... ❤❤

今天，他变得 很甜蜜哦。。

他，

虽然，

他做的事，是很普通。。

可是，我都满足了。。❤

想不到这么快就三个月了。。

更想不到，

我在这三个月，

学到很多东西，

也 长大了很多。。

妮妮 ~ 加油哦。。 =^-^=

❤妮

93 days @ 17/07/2011

哇。。。

明天 就3个月咯。。。

时间真的过的快。。。

这个礼拜，

真的发生好多事情哦。。。



真的不想回头想。。

一想，眼泪就不知不觉的

从眼睛流去。。

算啦，

不想再多说啦。。。

我能做的就是，

每晚水浅坐在床前pray。。

baby,

现在一定很没心情。。

哎，看见他这样，心都痛了。。

==

这小孩。。

我问他，明天是什么日子。。

他敢说 4month aniversary..

然后才记得是3不是4。。

然后，我问他我的生日。。

他敢说 “如果没记错”。。。 ==///

他记得是12月。。

日子虽然乱猜。。

可是都被他猜中了。。==///

他说他记得是9号或19号但一定不是29好。。

后来我装 生气他。。

要他逗我开心。。

哈哈。。

他吓疯了，他都不知道我在后面傻笑。。

小孩阿小孩。。

你真可爱。。 ❤

❤妮

91 days @ 15/07/2011

我，

好想，你对我耍浪漫。。。

我

好想，你对我耍小孩。。

我

好想，你每天对我说 三个字。。

傻瓜。。

我更想你主动点。。

你懂吗？

❤妮

91 days @ 15/07/2011

多三天就三个月了。。
时间过得很快哦。。。

这几天，都没和baby讯息了。。

他电话快没钱了。。><

虽然，

有点很不习惯。。

可是，直到晚上收到他的goodnight msg。。

心突然从酸变甜了。。

昨天突然收到他的讯息。。

我真的开心到跳了。。 ><

to my dearest bestfriend
tangtang..

i know u gonna leave me tonight..

althought i not hope u go..

but, i still will pray for u..

hope u live happy there...

i will take care myself in ipoh de..

don't worry me.. <3

best friend forever.. ^^

keep in touch ya.. ^^

❤妮

82 day ❤ 08/07/2011

thanks alot...

thanks yuki coz not angry me..

thanks baby coz not angry and cheer me up..

i know i'm really wrong this time..

as myself also can't forgive myself..

this week i feel so suffering..

i cry for 2 days until yuki reply me...

 til lips going turn to purple... ><

shhhhh....

i'm sick now..

hard to breath.. its pain when breath...

nvm la, tomorrow will ok de la... ><
everytime after i cry den the next few days also will like that de..

dah biasa..

this time was a big lesson for me..

not to do the same things even a time ONCE..

this week,

i was too childish..

till i want to leave his world..

actually i not hope so.. but, it's better i suffer myself than all people suffer...

at last, he dun want..

thx, for giving me a chance

and thx again for not scolding me since i'm wrong..

once,

thank you so much

and

i'm so sorry...

❤Lee

76 days ❤ 02/07/2011

和你在一起的时间。。

甜酸苦辣，通通都试过。。

❤曾担心，

❤曾怀疑。。

❤曾伤心，

❤曾开心。。

可是，

不管我做错什么。

你都不会骂我。。❤

不管我发小孩子气，

你都不离不弃的待在我身边。。❤

我不开心，

你逗我笑。。❤

我生气时，

你陪在我身边。。❤

我开心时，

你陪我一期分享。。❤

你有很多东西，不跟我说。。

我不听理由的生气你。。

原来，你是怕我担心和不开心才不告诉我。。

你不但没生气我，没怪我。。

反而，陪在我身边，慢慢和我解释清楚。。

对不起。。

每次我问你，

我能做这个嘛？

我能去这里吗？

你都会回我，

你喜欢啦。。。

我知道你要给我自由。。

可是你给的是太多的自由。。

让我觉得，缺少了安全感。。

我不希望，

你想要给我自由而

说的都不是你心底的话。。

你明嘛？

你不想我去的地方，

我可以不去的。。

你不想我做的东西，

我可以不做。。

你不想我吃巧克力，

我可以不吃的。。 ^^

因为，

我真的在乎你。。你能为我付出，
为什么我不能。。 >< 

70days @ 26/06/2011

不知不觉，我和你。。

已经一起70天了。。。^^

都已经一个星期没update blog 了。。

经天，我不敢睡，不敢离开我的电话。。

应为，我在等你讯息。。

我知道你电话没钱了，可是

我不知道你几时会讯息我。。

所以，我决定 等。。。

i'm alone without you..

i'm bored without you.

I LOVE YOU... ^^


❤ you are my everything ❤

❤Lee

63 days.. 19/06/2011 ❤

17/06/2011..

baby so bz today... T^T

he din't even any msg..

his phone no credit le..

this few days he also din msg morning to me le.. ><

18/06/2011..

nite.. lastly he free..

yes..

and to nite i giv a big surprise for he..

lol..

baby, rmb i also can negative sometimes..

hahaha..XD

don't negative if TIRED k,baby..^^

i promised i giv everything 1st for u..

1st love..

1st hug..

1st kiss..

1st couple..

1st.............................................................

19/06/2011..

today is Sunday..

you bz again..

baby..

i begin miss you more day by day..

baby.. rmb your promised to me yty..

keep me warm everyday.. 

hehehe... =^o^=

57 days @ 13/06/2011

happy birthday sis! ^^

today i been absent to school...

1st reason.. im not felling very well..

2nd reason.. first day lazy to hear headmistress give speech..

haha..

blekk... =P

52 days @ 08/06/2011

today very tired...

but the first things i go home and do is..

open sdo..

coz baby can online le...

and i heard  he's on sdo now.. ^^

and today i fell unhppy too..

i fell like all my friends beside me 

all also like to busybody bout me...

they non stop asking me bout baby 

and

find for baby..

i really dun lik but what can i do..

haiz....

lol... 

dream always say,

baby love de only me..

i dk it real or not..

i dun care either real or false.

i;m stll love him..

dream going ask me today why

i love baby so much..

i also dk wor..

i asnwer,

~~ love some one is no need reaon,

if there is a reason for me to love some one 

that nt a true love.. ~~

hehe...

i wrote so many things but idk baby got look over anot..

but im still write out everything..

because no secret for me and baby..

i hv no secret to baby,

i hope baby also no secret from me too. ^^

i know is wun, coz i believe in baby... 

muackss,... <3

51 days @ 07/06/2011

06/06/2011

today i din sms with baby coz his phone no credit le...

haiz..

can't even sleep for the whole night... ><

aiyo..
......................................................................
07/06/2011
happy brithday mummy.. ^^
sorry mama,coz can't back home celebrate with you..
have a 1st birthday msg from me.. ❤

today feel tired..
coz din sleep for whole night neh.
but still good la, coz CHERIE TAN off today..
she go genting wor..
lol..
now i only know all my cousin dun like her..
today all people talk bout her at home..
MESYUARAT TTG DIA..
my grandmother also join... ==///
haha..

today baby use his friend geh phone to msg me..
lol..
some one scared i can't sleep again tonight..
haha.. love ya,baby.. ^^

50 days ~ 06/06/2011

this holiday,

i feel so weird..

go work but need to face two i not hope to face gea person....

CHERIE TAN

and

LING

.....................................................................................................

CHERIE TAN..

love to make face...

call people do work but not teaching..

when people do wrong,scold like shit..

always use the reason, i din ask..

hey, i got ask but you dun answer...

fine,

u r not the bos...

dun try to make face.

........................................................................................................

LING,

dun ever call me do this do that...

you r not pro in here...

u use mine thing and trick like i borrow your ...

==/// fine...

and dun ever try to make senior face..

you have no ZHI GE...

bcoz ur colouring is worse den me

although you know more things than me..

colouring also worse than a basical...

is not known as master..

understand!

.......................................................................................................

this few days always mad with them

and

busy working..

also less msg with baby le..

CHERIE TAN

warning me wor, can't sms while working wor...

wei, how u also must rmb..

U NOT THE BOS!

my cousin ONLY THE BOS~!



44 days ~ 31/05/2011 ( yesterday )

2 days le,

he got additional class in school~

haiz~

(30/05/2011) i off the day.. (no work)

31/05/2011

go work like biasa..

after work go Euro House(place to drink beer)

my cousin bring de..

Kristine, Jefrey... (my cousins)

also at there..

i sms with baby,

but suddenly he said let he cooling down..

idk what happen,when i sms back her sis reply..

she said baby argue with her mom..

when i want to msg back, my phone no batt le.. T^T

sorry dear...

yty i no sleep..

can't sleep le...  ><

43 days.. 30/05/2011 ❤❤

three day stay at popo house..

three days non-stop working..

time sms with baby also less le..

 

yty night chat til nothing to chat le ma?

apa virgin tak virgin coming house... ><

i'm under age la boy...

 

and

some1 keep laughting like sopo... ==''

LOLZ~

i think we need to send her to Tanjung Rambutan Ipoh better... ><

hahaz... ❤

40 days @ 27/05/2011

a few days din update blog le..

exam merx...

happy coz today was las day of exam...

but sad bcoz my drawing spoil le..

hahax...

da drawing pen i use to draw de,

i dk the colour will run if add with water....

i draw using the pen and colour with colour water..

>< my lady face...

chinese suddenly change into indian lady.. HAHAZ...XD

today exam paper 1 quite hard...

since now 5 months le i study in this class but

i in art class can count with hands~

teacher was busy with her works and

less in the class...

haiz~ ><

23/05/2011

jie,give me use N95..

hohoho~

i bring it to school~ hehe~

before i finish school~

i get a msg from baby.. ^^

lolz~

i too open liao,i took out the phone and replying msg~

PHEWW~

luckily no teacher~

hehe~

my mom also haven know i use the phone~

SHH~

i'm not telling~

kakaka~

FAMILY

我妒嫉~

我妒嫉别人有开心的家。。

我妒嫉别人有爱他们的爸妈~

我妒嫉，我妒嫉，我妒嫉~

爸妈，

我知道你们数读不多。。钱难找。。

这不代表你们要贪呀~

有谁不知道呢？

连你自己的妈（我婆婆）都这样讲。。

婆婆给我的钱，我给你。。

干爸给我的钱，我给你~

我帮表姐打工的钱，我和你分一半。。

难道这还不够吗。。？

妈，

除了钱，难道你没其他东西和我谈了吗？

为什么，姐都不要回来这个家住~

难道你不知道吗？

在你眼里，钱比我们还重要。。

你能为了钱打我，为了钱叫我去打工~

做工时，我当然没时间读书啊~

没时间读书当然考不好呀。。

可是，我没不及格不是好了吗？

考不好，你就会骂我~

考得好，连全部人都知道~

妈，

虽然我爱脸子~

可是如果用脸子和你的爱调换。。

我希望我拥有的是你的爱~

妈，

不管怎样，你都是我妈，

不管你怎样对我，你还是我妈。。

从我诞生那一天，

我就注定把我自己交给你们了~

不管我多妒嫉别人~

不管你们多贪钱~

我都会爱你们~

爸妈，我爱你~

F:ATHER
A:ND

M:OTHER

I 

L:OVE

Y:OU

❤妮

35 days @ 22/05/2011

3 days le,

you very less sms with me~

friday - busy

saturday - friends birthday

sunday - busy

ya,

i really sad but what can i do?

haiz..

just smile and say nevermind ba..

i know you not hope this too~

i know if i tell you i not happy, you also will be sad together~

so, i prefer tell i'm nothing,nevermind..

because

i prefer 1 person sad more than 2 person..

i can't do anything..

and

can't change anything..

smile and accept is what can i do~

❤Lee

33 days @ 20/05/2011

today i crazy~

i'm BELANJA my friend eating~

i bought a plate of  nasi goreng~ RM1.30

and 13 scoop of fried chicken ball....

1 scoop = 3 fried chicken ball.. ~ RM1 = 1 scoop

13 = 39 fried chicken ball...=='' ~ RM13

eat with added mayonaise and chili sause.... ><

all total i have been eaten for RM14.30...

what happen to me?

sot le la~?

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34 days @ 21/05/2011

today i stay again in Popo house...

fell likes want to msg Baby,

but scared disturb he...

already 2 days le, he sleep without telling..

and i have no chance to say good night to baby~

this already be nature to say good night to you~

this 2 days without you good night,

i feel like something less le~

and this 2 days...

i can't sleep...

i also want to sleep, but just feel like so fresh... ><

tonight, Baby go friend bday party...

he sure play happy til forgot me le....

but, i still keep leaving my phone beside me..

hoping he reply and i can reply it~

but at last, he sleep le also din't sms me....

==''

apa lah..

fine, i keep online-ing..

can't sleep mer..

no choice.. T^T

updating blog... ❤

29 days @ 16/05/2011❤❤

 i sleep at popo's house...

chating with Dream and Choon on SDO til 2am... ><

i have make a name for them..

hehe , nice name.. ^^

Dream = blur ikan bilis❤

Choon = blur panda❤

me = blur sotong....❤

hehe...XD

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30 days @ 17/05/2011❤❤

go jogging with popo around the garden..

afternoon, follow jiejie go shop...

until 6, went to Parade...

find bag and msg-ing with baby.. ❤

baby tell his phone no credit liao~

though want to uploaded for him RM5 de...

jiejie lazy and i only have RM10 coupon in my pocket~

.............................

what ever la, uploaded RM10 for baby lur~

for him because he had finish credit for me and

for tomorrow one month... ^^

after that went back bring popo go eating..

O.o...

eating WAN TAN MEE~

hehe..XD

then,back home tidor.. lols~

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1 month @ 18/05/2011

happpy...

so fast, 1 month le...

is really like dreaming...

unbelivable!

today baby quite busy...

back school in 2 somthing and tuition in 4 somthing~

he is really tired ba~

today he sleep early on 10.30...

good mer, sleep is more healthy.. ^^

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32 days @ 19/05/2011

today, actually i got stayback for dancing..

BUT

nobody going to stay...

huh...

really mad and angry plus sad~

i though i lost my brother pendrive~

since i could cry til msg baby..

thanks baby,coz stay beside me(though phone)

what baby say was so touchable although i feel a little bid cold..

haha...❤

luckily,Puteri take home my pendrive..

PHEWW~

thanks GOD so much~

scared me... ><

29 days.. ❤

so fast..

already to 29 days ler...

i can even press delete *her* ( my senior )

on my heart~

today, i can loudly say~

 i have no respon when stand beside you~

i wouldn't run away from you already~

because someone has replace you from the important places in my heart~

sorry to say that~

can't deleting you from my mind?...

don't forget, it still got the word FORMAT~

FORMATING are can't error~

since i press FORMAT, i already know everything would disapper~

you, your goodness, your badness or even though everything~

i wrote out because i want to mark it as my memories~

for not being stupid again~

the place wouldn't be empty~

and the place are shouldn't be yours~

last time, you hurt me so much~

now let other people return to you ba~

❤Lee

27 days ❤

Unbelieveable memories~❤

today, baby wake up early then me..

congrat..❤

^^

after that,

i'm asking baby :

baby,what is your favourite colour....

Baby :

you guess...

Me:

erm... blue,black and ....

Baby :

wow,pro correct two le, one more leh..

Me :

White? purple....

Baby :

walao, baobei so pro. i like blue, black and white ^-^ my mei also same

Me :

i just wrote out my favourite colour jek... can't believe all correct.. =='

Baby :

ft... how come same de.. me and my mei also don't like pink.. so we got wai hao that is anti-pink

Me :

pink are the ugliest and hatest colour for me... ><

how come same de...??

Baby :

yea.. hehez.. ^-^

Me :

i think favourite colour same already surprice..

can't imagine anti'colour also same... ==

~The End~

=='''

27 days ❤

27 days..

we are being together~

i'm so sorry because i din't even tell you bout

my senior~

sorry,

because i angry you with not telling you

the story~

Thx TangTang for telling..

have a great dinner at Penang.. ^^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

luckily,

thx Baby for understand me...

i love you... ❤

26 days @ 13/05/2011

i don't know why these few days

blogger are can't open...

just like yesterday...

today i'm here to write about yesterday....

yesterday i stay in school til 6 but back ealier at 4...

but

my sister had took my phone to my grandmother house..

so, i can't message Show....

my sister work until 6,

so, i sit in my sister working place until 6...

bored man, but still ok,because got Mc. D eat..

LALALA~

back home i quickly took out my phone and message Show...

but he late reply me...

on the time, i know he was sleeping...

he reply me when he awake...

but he will be busy soon...

i on SDO..

i saw Shakezu's bf and Dream...

Show called them train me in SDO..

but nobody want, or just maybe i'm noob in there...

what ever...

i tell Show..

Show going to call Dream... =='''

........................(speechless)

Dream say..

Show always disturb her...

When Show angry with her,

Show will find someone to disturb her... =='''

i don't know....

just feels like Show wouldn't do that...

i really don't know leh....

...................................................................................................................................

and i don't know why all my friend included Dream..

also says that i and Show was sweet couple... ❤

maybe,

i din't even couple before, so,

i don't know...

but it made me more appreaciate the times we are being together... ❤

yesterday, i and Show was sleep late...

Kekez... ❤

we keep message until 1 o'clock...

but after that i beh tahan le..

i was sleepy,so i sleep first...

now was 9 am....

he haven reply my message...

baby pig...  ❤

haven wake up ba.. ><

baby, always the best pig..

haha...

eat can took a long time, sleep too... ><

LOL~ ❤

25 days...❤

today i have stayback at school

for training to dance...

i see the clock, it shows 1.50...

i took out my phone and type to Show..

but i look at his respons it look like,

he is too tired..

...........................................................



i have call him to sleep early yesterday...

because he din't sleep afternoon yesterday....

and all these day,

i found that he really a cute pig...

he will be more childish when he was not enough sleep..

LOLZ....

❤Lee...

24 days??????

amazing...

we are already pass 24 days...

unbelivable~

ours aniversary is 18/04/2011..

and today is 11/05/2011....❤

p/s..

i change my number from one of my digi number to hotlink..

and

he buy a digi simpack because of me too...

touchable...❤

BABY, i ❤ u...

to my beloVed... ❤

BABY , everyone says i'm just like ONE LESS LONELY GIRL.

i wish to see you everyday and i hope everything we had will STUCK IN THE MOMENT.

i just need ONE TIME to FALLEN in love with you again.

when YOU SMILE my heart will also smile.so,i told you to LOVE ME.

i will PRAY for our relationship

.

cause i know i have SOMEBODY TO LOVE and i will NEVER LET YOU GO.

All cause of Justin Bieber songs :D

Created by~Afina Zalikha. (My classmate @ Bieber fever) XDD

.

LOVE are BEAUTIFUL.. ❤

YeanLee was in a relationship...

beautiful and awesome...❤

last time,i thought love are nothing~

and i feel all the girls are crazy for doing anythings for their partner...

now i know...

it not crazy or mental~

it was the LOVE's ENERGY...

it may DRUNK a people from LOVE...^^

i love the way you LOVE

没有你的日子~

我都已经习惯了~

一个人~

寂寞的感觉，已经变成自然了~

心碎了。。

怎样补也补不好~

伤好了，却留下疤痕~

让我好好地记住这一切~

提醒我永远都不要再犯同样的错~

这是一个用很多钱买回来的教训~

我永远都不会再为他扶一毛钱~



。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

时间是不可以从来的~

所以我选择勇敢地面对~

我不会选择死或伤害自己~

应为，你不值得我去为你这样做。。。

♥妮

hatest of my life

today im cutting my hair into short again~

this is d last time i cut it~

i thought i can leave a great memory of it~

but

it not a great memory

but

it made me hate short hair~

says like Tavia's hair

i don't know

is mine hair problem

or

d hair stylish problem

...........................................................................................................

he stupid?

im telling im still a student~

my cousin tell he tht look a like oni~

he is not cutting look alike but is definately~

 

OH GOD~!

Tavia's hair are too short...

n im still a student~

 

he can i go school with those hair~

im look like a boy~

MY GOD~

n sum1 asking me, r u gonna b tb~

im not~

 

i just couple with a boy 6 days ago~

we haven meet,although we meet in sdo~

so,is he a human~

yea,he is~

 

does he like a girl who look like a boy~

NO! he won't!

SHIT~

 

feel lik 1 2 die~!

i love my hair,why it can b like tht~

 

 

 

 

18/04/2011

2day~

i mark it as MEMORABLE day~

coz sum1 ask me b her GoD SisTer~

hu is she/he~

Yea~

erm~

go checkout my FB hu is my latest sibling~

den u will noe~ ^^

and in SDO~
i meet a new frenz aka bf on SDO~
i din even noe him but jutz couple on SDO~
it fun games n i love it.. ❤

lalala~

没有你的日子 第53天 雨

2day im absent to skul~

dear friends,

hw was d astronaut SMS given speech~

sure vv bored~

hw mani ppl go skul~

sure vv little~

hw was d class~

sure vv silent coz no me in there~

hw was 'u'~

got go skul?

i hope i wun care bout this~ T^T

hw was jie~

*MAXINE*

got go skul~

happy?

aku tak tahu~!

tis wat owez bsid me..

i cant life without music bcoz music r relaxing...
but some song will make me cry too,coz when i play tht song..
my heart will appear all of yrs memories...
it touch yr heart when it sing all d word from yr heat..

by..

Lee❤

memories too..❤❤ 25/03/2011

went 2 Singapore wib mother + sister..❤❤

 2nd floor at Sentosa... Universal Global

 at 2nd floor Sentosa, Hershey's Chocolate Shop...
life's good i diin bring money, if nt i surely bankrup when home...

 nice picha... takin at Sentosa... a nice n fresh view...

 Candylicious... a tree full of candy.. nice?

takin at Sentosa... memories pic..

memories...❤❤20/03/2011

went to Parade wib Vivian...❤❤

 Vivian wib Shih Lin XXL chicken....❤❤

 Yean Lee wib ice blended chocolate...❤❤

 Yean Lee + Vivian havin a banana splite wib chocolate + vanila flavor..❤❤

Vivian = ice mocha , Yean Lee = ice blended mocha...❤❤

你不懂我的心~我不懂你（华语版）

想找一个理由~

好让我转身就走~

为什么，这个时候才发现我越恨你越难受～

ya,its about writing bout me~

im try 2 hate u!

im try 2 get away from u~but im fail 2 do it~

❤Lee

YeanLee WAKE UP~!!!!!

wat happen 2 me those day~

im non stop looking out d window n dreaming in class~

n suddenly im crying when studying n singing~

my tears non stop runing out~

n i cant concentrade on study~

nomatter a easy question for science i aso need 2 search 4 frenz answer~

YeanLee~!

exam is around d corner~u cant dreaming anymore~

but~

wat can i do~i cant do anything coz im dreaming atuomaticly~

OH MY GOD~

 ❤Lee

tis song r mention me now... T^T

although everytimes i bsid u~

but i realli duno~

in ur heart junior is more important den me~

4 me u r important coz u r my senior n my frenz~

sad history... ❤

❤Lee

dear frenz~

no matter hw v b...

v still bestfrenz...

no matter later v work 

n not being 2geter after form5~

i cant say tht u all wun 4got me..

but i can tel u all i WUN 4get bout u all guys~

❤CANDYLESS group,

BEST FRIEND 4EVER~

❤Sabrina

❤Puteri

❤Azhani

❤CheeSan

❤Vithya

❤ u guys so MUCH~

❤ur buddyz❤

LeeYean

sejarah~ history~♥♥

Ours story,

is begin a history...

only u n me history,

those r nt important for you,

but i quite important for me...

i will never ever 4got bout you...

bcoz you r the 1 hu make me happy, sad, cry, mad, angry, jealous, blur, crazy..

i don't know anything,

i duno u saw my blog anot..

i duno u read wat m i writing anot..

i duno~

but i still 1na write out

those word i not dare 2 say 2 u~

tht all 4 2dae..

♥Lee

放手の原因

不知不觉，

我认识你都快四年了~

到今天，

我发现我越来越不了解你~

你变了，我也变了。。。

我故意在你面前装不在乎你~

是因为，我不想在接近你~

我知道你难做，

我知道你很讨厌我~

你不跟我说，不代表我看不去来~

虽然，我不知道为什么~

可是，

我选择了这条路，

我就有责任走完他。。

♥妮

Since 2day my smile r owez false~

until 2day i oni relize tht hw 2 smile~

everytimes, my smiles r outlook~

it doesn't real~!

i not even happy~

now, i need 2 drunk myself with study~

oni frenz n books in my life~

CHANEL~?

************deleting**10%**20%**50%**80%**error**************

OH MY GOD~~~~

nah~

Since when i make my blog as my half diary~

since when i tough nobody c my blog~

since when my blog is full of you~

NEH~!

i aso duno~

jutz now i been look back 4 my older post~

i relize tht i ALMOST all post bout u~

since when u b a part if my life~

since when u b a part of my blog~

AIYOR~

i REALLY duno~

since when~!

er~

is d day i open blog~

u r not stopping by me into it~

hw could tis b~

if u hv a blog, i sure tht din even hv my name on it~

its definately no~!

bcoz im und. u~

C~! U AGAIN~

HAIZ~!!!!!

32 days ler i n u din talk 2 each other~

U r still in my mind~

im still care 4 u~

YEAN LEE! wat happen 2 u~

i think the trip 2 Singapore can make me 4got bout u~!

but when i reach there,

i definately cant~!

coz in Singapore there's all ur name post EVERYWHERE~

OH NO!

holiday 0/9 days left~ ごめなさい MAXINE~!

as today,

im not gonna 2 saw u in skul~

bcoz i hv use tis holiday 2 4get bout u~

i hope its realli work~

2day went 2 parade wid Vivian~

saw Naruto, feels lik wanna buy 4 u~

BUT LASLY,

i din buy~

bcoz i promised myself~

NO CHANEL,NO CHANEL,NOCHANEL~

ONI MAXINE! MAXINE! MAXINE!

i hv hurt MAXINE mani times jutz bcoz of CHANEL~

SHIT~!

MAXINE is my KHAI JIE neh......

MAXINE ごめなさい～

Me~Me~Me~♥♥

LeeYean new face~ da look which look different~
a whole new LeeYean ~

march,16 2011

holiday 5 of  9 days~

ppl holiday r vv happi~

but my holiday is d worse~

ppl can go shopping or travel~

me? huh, stay hum n fly here fly there 2 hv a job~

.................

n i cant hv 2gether wib my group CANDYLESS during holiday~

MY GOD~

+ i hv a *GOOD* news on this holiday too
which r my fav, country~

JAPAN~

is land by earth quake,tsunami,everythings smash~

Although las tim JAPANESE is bad~

BUT doesnt mean if all they could hv, nw they r change rite~

Japan is beautiful wib all buildings,trees,animals~

but nw on ...................

18 days~

18 days i din talk n search 4 u~

so,hw r u ~

i can say loudly,i happier now den las tim~

cry? oh,DEFINATELY NO!

sad? ERM, NOT REALLI~

coz i promised myself,

stop crying 4 u~!

n i DID IT~!!

YEA~!!!

congatulation n celebation~

now, you just my senior in school~

i told already i can do it!

MY SENIOR!



Im being tired~

Since tht day,

im confirm infront of all my frenz~

i will put down all bout her~

everyday,

u saw me in school,i act din saw u~

CheeSan say u c me everytim im infront of u~

i said i duno~ n i dun1 2 noe~

CheeSan say mayb she wanna b frenz bek wid me~

i say if she come n talk 2 me, i mayb will forgiv her,n talk 2 her~

but d friendship wun as gud as las tim~

bcoz,

hwever aso there is a scars in my heart~

it wun dissapear 4ever n ever~

u da 1 hu gav me hopeness n disapointed~

i wil owez rmb tis LESSONS~

bcoz it make me more MATURE~

by LeeYean.

放下~

事到如今~

我没有其它的选择~

哭也哭过了~

笑也笑过了~



最后，我都很不拾得的放手~

对你和对我~

也好~

你讨厌我，

其实，我都知道~

你对别人比对你所谓的干妹妹的我好~

你知道我有多心痛吗~！？

心痛~

这三年~

我为你，做了这么多的事~

难道你都没感觉到吗？

为什么，你只会骂我~

为什么！为什么！为什么！

我妈生我去来~不是给你骂的~！

你以为我不知道~

你以前对我好，而不是真正的好~

只是，因为我够笨~

我答应知己，

我再也不要做回以前的燕妮了~！！！

可是~怎么样都好~

我都要谢谢你~

如果不是你~

我还在依赖朋友~

不是你~

我就不会像现在这么坚强~

如果不是你。。。。。

i tough i can HAPPY~

I TOUGH i can HAPPY

when u tel me,

u can b my BRO~

BUT

til now~

HAPPINESS is CHANGE~

into a DEEPER SADNESS~

it's not HAPPIER but change into DEEPER SADNESS~

wat happen~

tis is wat i say las POST.... T^T

I FELL VV TIRED~

u lik sport~

yeah, a super active~

BUT

u owez made urself hurt~

as im d oni 1 , hu care 4 u~

hu dun thing anything den run n catch d ball from hurting u~

does u noe BOUT TIS~

NO~

Bcoz of u, i hurt myself~

Bcoz of u i get scold by my mom~

Bcoz of u i stay in skul till 5 o'clock with d reason training wib u~

Bcoz of u i do anything u ask~

all BCOZ of u~

BUT lastly wat u GIV ME~

i doesn't want anythin~

i JUTS HOPE wat i say on las POST~

its PAINER den get HITTED by d ball~

I CANT ACT ANYMORE~

COZ IM REALLI TIRED~
LAS 3YRS IM OWEZ ACTING HAPPY IN FRONT OF EVERY1~

ARH~ I CANT LET THOSE HAPPENING AGAIN~

I WOULD B MENTAL PROBLEM OF A DAY SOON~

Heart break~

i jutz HOPE u can trick me better~

i jutz HOPE u talk 2 me everytime u saw me~

DOES IT HARD~

i dun no~

everytime i talk 2 u~

i jutz lik talk to a bulding which hv no RESPOND~

u noe hw HURT m i~

sumtimes i tough u didn't hear~

i repeat it~

DEN u jutz lik "HUH"~

SAY tht im ur KHAI MUI too~

BUT

ASK urself,when u gt trick me as wat u say too~

i can LOUDLY say "NO"

u DIN EVEN~!

u jutz noe hw 2 hurt me n scold me~

im vv disapointed of myself~

Y until nw i aso do anything 4 u~

i REALLI duno wat 2 say~

3 yrs~

i tough lasly u b my BRO.

(tht wat i wanted from 3yrs ago)

i tough u will trick me better~

tis all i tough myself~

i ALMOST cry EVERYDAY~

but does u noe~?

u jutz care bout urself n "THEM",u WUN EVEN care bout me~

as im a MORON, im d oni 1 hu owez care bout u~

i REALLI vv tired~

i FEEL LIK wanna put down all~

does i can do tis~?

m i realli can put down~?

I DUN NO~

y u lik 2 ignore me~

i try my best to *lompat tinggi*....

but

i still cant 4got wat did my best frenz do~

sori bro,

i noe u vv angry

but

i realli cant jump over~

T^T

i scared u scold me,i belanja u 3 Vitagen....

n RM5~~~

but i wun wan anything bek from u,

for me u happy is everything~

bcoz u r my bro~

if sis(maxine) i aso wil did d same thing~

but

4 me, i din even saw jie angry....

wakaka

Love Is Sucks

i LOVE u~

BUT

in ur heart

tht oni HER..

u say tht u dun1 2 c me get HURT~

SO,

does tht mean u close ur EYES

when i CRY~

Life

LIFE~

just lik rollercoaster~

its going up n down~

which full of suprise~

which u needed or not~

PLZ DUN GET AWAY FROM ME~

11/01/11

i though i was LUCKY tis year coz i wait her 3 years

lastly on 11/01/11 she b my bro~

BUT

im wrong~

14/01/11

my best frenz, Nadhirah..

she told me tht she had 2 change 2 teknik skul~

17/01/11

my bro, Nel~

told me, tht her mother say want her to stop skul

n go KL~

tis 2 day i cry til die~!

TIS YEARS R SHIT 4 ME~

NEW BROTHER

YEAH~

♥I HAVE A NEW KAI GOR~♥

I WAIT TIS DAY ADY 3 YRS~

HOEYEAH~

♥...(ACTUALLY MY GOR IS A GIRL)...♥

♥~TB MERX~♥

11/01/11

I WILL OWEZ RMB TIS DAY

♥...11/01/11....♥

BCOZ I WAIT TIS DAY ADY 3 YEARS~

 

 

now, you just my senior in school~

i told already i can do it!

now, you just my senior in school~

i told already i can do it!

 

IM VV HAPPY~♥

COZ I DIN EVEN REGRET WAT I DO~

THX Q~♥

I DUNO Y BUT IM STILL HAPPY~♥

My Happiest day is when you say i accept you as

my,

MEIMEI...❤

03/01/11

today start skul lor~

but im vv blur~

feel lik new in skul...

==''.. wakaka~

bcoz im gonna crazy to look all my frenz~

coz tooooooo happy~

01/01/11

start today im form4 student~

n Maxine,Nel n others is gonna b form5 student~

n Siew Yee, Peei See they all gonna *sapu daun* jor~

T^T

they gonna leave me jor~

next year im gonna b form5

n Maxine , Nel they all aso gonna leave me...

T^T.....

11/12/10

10/12/10..
 after Kbox v walk in Parade~

Nel n her other frenz go shoot for ear piecing~

i c i vv feel wanna shoot too~

but scared pain...

><

lastly , on 11/12/10...
i go n shoot.......
><'''

10/12/2010

2day i was celebrating bday in Kbox

2gether with Nel~

BUT

i feel i was lik 电灯胆~
there was no 1 i noe
EXCEPT
her... T^T

fortunaltely, i meet a frenz there~
n a few days later they told me
that
d gal is Nel geh gf... ==''

Now i noe i totally 电灯胆~!
in there~

09/12/2010

09/12

was my bday~

i think no 1 will rmb my bday except my family..

n i aso dun 1 2 tel any1~

n im so surprise tht all i think r not~

i get a 1st call n HEPI BDAY from *her*